Mila

Mila,
Today is not a "special" day, but I wanted to make sure to write something for each of you so that when days are tough (like what you are going through now) you can look back to this and hopefully it will bring a little joy to your heart.

Since the day we where married we have spent 3,846 days together, I count them all, because good or bad days, they are spent with you.  I wish I had some great words to tell you how blessed and honored I am that 3,846 days ago today you said I do.  Your heart I take with me everyday and will forever continue to do that.  I love you so much and with all I have, I honestly hold nothing back.

Right now your heart is broken and mine breaks with you. I know you loved your dad so much that you didn't even realize how much till he was gone.  I know you are trying to grieve and be there for your mom and sister at the same time and I am so sorry.  I wish there was a magic wand I could wave and make it all better.  I have little to offer, but myself.  I will be here every step of the way for you and your mom, that was a promise I made and one that I will forever keep.

You changed my life in so many ways for the better.  I have never loved deeper, laughed harder, cried uglier, then I do with you.  We have talked several times over the past 2 weeks about how we where meant to be together.  I love hanging out with you, I love harassing you and having you bust my chops right back.  I have fun with you, I love learning about you, I love going places and doing things with you.  You are the half that truly does make me whole, and I thank God for you everyday.

I love you being the mother to our kids.  The good days and the bad.  You make our kids feel safe.  You make their life a party like it should be.  We have learned to quickly that life is fleeting. Thank you for spoiling our kids and making them rotten despite what I some times say.  Thank you for teaching them Love, Respect, Kindness, Compassion and how to get schooled in basketball. Thank you for letting our little girls dress you up like a real live doll and then leaving on the gorgeous makeup all day for them. Thank you for being the greatest mom in the world, our kids have no idea how lucky they are.

Thank you for loving me despite my many shortcomings. Thank you for always allowing me to chase my dreams.  Thank you for letting me be me, but nothing when to step in and let me know when I am not.  Thank you for trusting me and following me through life.  Thank you for trusting that I seek God first to lead our family and not questioning that.  Thank you for being my biggest fan and best friend. I know a lot of people wonder what will happen when the kids are gone with their relationship, but I am here to tell you there is a big part of me that can't wait!  I love you so much Mila and I hope today you know that even a little more!  Thank you for the past 3,846 days.

I love you